A Moment of Pause


british_columbiaThings didn’t go well yesterday. I spent the morning in court to give evidence on a case of severe horse abuse, a case so bad that the horse died before we had a chance to show him that not all humans are evil. The defendant didn’t bother to show up, nor do we yet know the owner’s identity, which makes it completely possible that he/she will simply go out and buy another horse.

I usually don’t let these cases get to me. After fifteen years of doing this work, I understand that there is no salvaging the type of human that sinks so low that they can easily beat and starve a horse and show no guilt. Perhaps that’s one of the reasons I surround myself with those filled with compassion. I depend on them just as much as they depend on me. But this little horse got to me in a big way, and as a result I spent the day grumping around and the evening looking at pictures of horses in the past that died much the same way, until I ran across a story that I had copied ages ago about a cab driver that took a little old lady for a ride, the last ride of her life. If nothing else, it confirmed to me that the vast majority of people are good. I know that, but sometimes it helps just to know it again.

For a brief break in all the negative news, let me share the story with you. I have no idea who the writer was, but the story is a message that we all need to hear. (Just found out that the writer was Kent Nerburn)


Twenty years ago, I drove a cab for a living.

It was a cowboy’s life, a life for someone who wanted no boss.

What I didn’t realize was that it was also a ministry.

Because I drove the night shift, my cab became a moving confessional. Passengers climbed in, sat behind me in total anonymity, and told me about their lives. I encountered people whose lives amazed me, ennobled me, and made me laugh and weep.

But none touched me more than a woman I picked up late one August night. I was responding to a call from a small brick fourplex in a quiet part of town. I assumed I was being sent to pick up some partyers, or someone who had just had a fight with a lover, or a worker heading to an early shift at some factory for the industrial part of town.

When I arrived at 2:30 a.m., the building was dark except for a single light in a ground floor window.

Under these circumstances, many drivers would just honk once or twice, wait a minute, then drive away.

But I had seen too many impoverished people who depended on taxis as their only means of transportation.

Unless a situation smelled of danger, I always went to the door. This passenger might be someone who needs my assistance, I reasoned to myself.

So I walked to the door and knocked. “Just a minute”, answered a frail, elderly voice. I could hear something being dragged across the floor.

After a long pause, the door opened. A small woman in her 80′s stood before me. She was wearing a print dress and a pillbox hat with a veil pinned on it, like somebody out of a 1940s movie. By her side was a small nylon suitcase. The apartment looked as if no one had lived in it for years. All the furniture was covered with sheets. There were no clocks on the walls, no knick-knacks or utensils on the counters. In the corner was a cardboard box filled with photos and glassware.

“Would you carry my bag out to the car?” she said. I took the suitcase to the cab, then returned to assist the woman. She took my arm and we walked slowly toward the curb. She kept thanking me for my kindness.

“It’s nothing”, I told her. “I just try to treat my passengers the way I would want my mother treated.”

“Oh, you’re such a good boy”, she said. When we got in the cab, she gave me an address, then asked, “Could you drive through downtown?”

“It’s not the shortest way,” I answered quickly.

“Oh, I don’t mind,” she said. “I’m in no hurry. I’m on my way to a hospice.”

I looked in the rear view mirror. Her eyes were glistening.

“I don’t have any family left,” she continued. “The doctor says I don’t have very long.”

I quietly reached over and shut off the meter. “What route would you like me to take?” I asked.

For the next two hours, we drove through the city. She showed me the building where she had once worked as an elevator operator. We drove through the neighborhood where she and her husband had lived when they were newlyweds. She had me pull up in front of a furniture warehouse that had once been a ballroom where she had gone dancing as a girl. Sometimes she’d ask me to slow in front of a particular building or corner and would sit staring into the darkness, saying nothing.

As the first hint of sun was creasing the horizon, she suddenly said, “I’m tired. Let’s go now.”

We drove in silence to the address she had given me. It was a low building, like a small convalescent home, with a driveway that passed under a portico. Two orderlies came out to the cab as soon as we pulled up. They were solicitous and intent, watching her every move. They must have been expecting her. I opened the trunk and took the small suitcase to the door. The woman was already seated in a wheelchair.

“How much do I owe you?” she asked, reaching into her purse.

“Nothing,” I said.

“You have to make a living,” she answered.

“There are other passengers”.

Almost without thinking, I bent and gave her a hug. She held onto me tightly.

“You gave an old woman a little moment of joy,” she said. “Thank you.”

I squeezed her hand, then walked into the dim morning light. Behind me, a door shut. It was the sound of the closing of a life.

I didn’t pick up any more passengers that shift. I drove aimlessly, lost in thought. For the rest of that day, I could hardly talk. What if that woman had gotten an angry driver, or one who was impatient to end his shift? What if I had refused to take the run, or had honked once, then driven away?

On a quick review, I don’t think that I have done anything more important in my life.

We’re conditioned to think that our lives revolve around great moments. But great moments often catch us unaware – beautifully wrapped in what others may consider a small one.


After reading that, here’s a poll on Fox news that you might want to take: CLICK HERE (The pro-slaughter people are winning)

AUTHOR: Jerry Finch
  • Marcia

    It is so hard and discouraging to face the results of abuse and neglect day after day and often know that those responsible will never be punished. Not only that, they will very likely go ahead and continue doing more harm to innocent horses and other animals. Yet, if those who care give up, there will be no hope.

    I hope that cab driver and all who help those in need (animals included!) will receive their blessings, just as I wish the abusers will some day get what they deserve.

    March 20, 2013
  • LNorman

    You can vote on this poll more than once!

    March 20, 2013
  • BlessUsAll

    Written through a haze of tears:

    In memory of the horse whose inner worth you so valiantly defended in court, Jerry, and in honor of the compassionate cab driver and his dear passenger, let all of us who love goodness for its own sake click on that Fox News poll and answer the question aright, until the evil that seems to be afflicting hearts and minds is smothered by the power of LOVE.

    March 20, 2013
  • Thank you for this. Needed it too!

    March 20, 2013
  • Billie Wood

    There must be a special place in HELL for these monsters.
    Thank you for not giviing up the fight.

    March 20, 2013
  • Laurel

    Thank you..I sure needed that this morning! (and the vote is looking better)

    March 20, 2013
  • Sue Wallis Lies

    The No crowd is out in force and are now ahead!

    March 20, 2013
  • susan rudnicki

    NO! the poll has more people voting to NOT eat horsemeat

    March 20, 2013